Unexpected

Today was the most scary day in my entire life, I am sure many others felt the same before and will again in the future.

A visit at hospital following some pains and contractions, which was supposed to end today, ended up in a tormented moment - everything happened so quickly. I was laughing with a visiting friend, after seeing my Gynea earlier on who just cleared me to go home, when all of a sudden, I am rushed into theatre and told my baby will be born NOW.

This cannot be!! She is just at 27 weeks gestation!! A minute ago, everything was fine and I was about to go home! I just dont understand.... I am scared, I have no control... I am so afraid for that little peanut that has been growing inside of me!

I am crying, I am praying, not sure to whom exactly, to all gods ever mentioned in books and stories, I am hoping this is a mistake..

I am rushed into theatre and the procedure is starting - I cant help but sobbing.. I am so scared as never before...

The noenatal doctor had warned me that I will not get to see my baby as she will be born - She will be in a critical condition and there will be no time for cooing or cudling. I am stripped from that entire conception of birth and bonding with my newborn baby - But most of all, I am at this stage, not even sure my baby will make it.

My partner is just as scared as I am, but he is staying strong and hopefull and keeps reassuring me that everything will be alright.

When my Gynea first told me at 19 weeks that my cervix is thining, I would have never imagined that 7 weeks later, my baby will have to be delivered. We took all the necessary precautions to prevent this from happening. Although I was not booked off work, I took it very easy and booked myself on leave during December and January, just to give my cervix a better healing chance after having a mac Donald stitch put in.